So how did this all get started, right?
This will be  redundant for some, I've told this story before. I haven't been "thin"  since I was a teen. I've struggled with my weight since I graduated from  high school and put on the freshman 20. I've always eaten generally  pretty healthy, (which has probably helped keep me in denial for about as long) but it's when the balance is tipped that I get into  trouble. I have a pretty good sweet tooth and I love good food. But I've  never been a binger or an over-eater. I think I just ate too many  calorie rich foods too often.
This is about changing the way you  think to have a healthier lifestyle. I had to tell myself it is just as  easy to grab an apple as it is to grab a high calorie granola bar... or  quarter pounder, or peanut butter cup blizzard, or whatever the vice. 60  calories? or 400 calories? big difference. And think of your children  learning this while they're young and saving them the heartache of  figuring it out on their own. What a gift. Because of our life choices, these children, statistically, are expected to live a shorter life than their parents.

(Mother's Day 2010, see my close up at the bottom to compare)Since  I had my children though, we've generally had a pretty healthy diet. Fruits,  veggies, whole grain everything. BUT I also generally always kept ice  cream on hand too. : ) We had also started to enjoy having a french loaf  in the house that we could dip in balsamic and olive oil almost  nightly. And I never really kept track of calories or carbs, but I did  watch my fats. I couldn't figure out where I was going so wrong, besides  not getting any exercise, I knew that was a problem, but not much I  could do to change it with my schedule. You always hear about people  that say, "oh, I just quit drinking soda and lost 20 pounds" or "I quit  eating out and lost 30 pounds" well, we didn't do either of those on a  regular basis, so I didn't think I had anything I could really take one  sweeping stab at.
Then one night at a mommies' night out dinner in  May of 2010, a friend mentioned that she had just invested in a really  good blender and was making smoothies every day for her kids and making  her own dressings, peanut butter, soups, etc, etc. Then it hit me. That  could be really good for us. Quick in the morning for breakfasts, but  perhaps get another serving of veggies in the kids before they even  start the day. Sign me up. I did a ton of research, even went to Sam's  and saw a demo, and finally decided on the BlendTec blender. Now, I'm  not saying you need a fancy blender to make a green smoothie. You can  use a regular blender, no problem. You may have to blend it longer  (thereby processing the greens more than ideal, BUT it'll work) It's  just that the BlendTec will make the best, most smoothest smoothie  you've ever had. And it has a ton of other uses. I looked at this as the  last blender I'd ever buy in my life and I planned to use it at least  daily.
(spinach, mango, greek yogurt, cinnamon, almond milk in a frosty mug with a big smoothie straw- the way to go!)That blender changed my life.
It was mid June.  After a week of making veggie/fruit blended smoothies, I had lost about  4-5 pounds. I was shocked. Not what I had expected at all. I wasn't 
trying  to lose weight, I was just trying to do something good for all of us.  So I stopped to think. What had changed? I wasn't having my usual big  bowl of whole grain Kashi with Silk soy milk, piled with strawberries,  blueberries and bananas. Sounds healthy, right? It IS! (for someone that  doesn't sit on their bum all day) But I can't burn all those carbs off.  And it was around 30 carbs just for the cereal alone. I also noticed  that the more green smoothies I had in the morning, the more my body  craved veggies in the afternoon. I was making salads for lunch and  eating more veggies at dinner. I was inspired by those few pounds  that had evaporated without trying and I wanted to run with it, so I  started to apply this thinking to other areas.
(July 2010, my face was already beginning to change.)Pasta.  We eat a lot of pasta, whole grain, but still.... all those carbs. Now,  don't get me wrong. My middle name is MODERATION, so I wasn't about to  eliminate every carbohydrate from my diet, but I knew that this was my  major threat. When I would make pasta, I would substitute my plate with  spaghetti squash. I don't mind the kids eating it, but my steamer only  does 1/2 a squash at a time. So my hubby's biggest complaint was not  being full at the end of dinner, so I kept serving them the whole wheat  pasta. I also started to use a smaller salad plate instead of my typical  dinner plate (about 8" instead of maybe 12"). I'd heard of this trick  before. Smaller portions on this plate makes your brain think it's  eating a lot more than if the same amounts were on a larger plate that  looks more empty. Within a couple of weeks, I'd lost another 5 pounds  and I was back into a tight size 14. But I was happier because I could  see the light! I was a bit frustrated because no one could really notice  yet, but that didn't stop me. I cut breads and tortillas out and we  quit buying French bread to dip in olive oil at dinner. No more ice  cream either. That was tough. But I knew I needed to watch the sugar  more. I was bound and determined to 
NOT live a completely exclusive  lifestyle. I was not going to "never eat bread again" or ice cream, or  cake. I want to enjoy my life, for goodness sake. I just wasn't going to  eat it every single day.
I bought a scale that could read BMI  and bone density/water, etc. and I was happy to have something more  accurate. I was a bit obsessive about the scale, but only because it  encouraged me to keep it up. And the crazy thing was that I wasn't  really missing the cereal anymore or all the breads. It was the  beginning of August.
We ate out for a week during our trip to  Disney World in September for my 35th birthday. I even enjoyed the  Wishes Dessert Buffet while watching the fireworks over the castle. The  trick to that was to take a bite out of everything I wanted to try, but  only finish what I really loved. They were all tiny little mini  desserts. We did a ton of walking that week, so that helped. I still  lost 2 pounds.


Going  into the fall, I started to use more frozen fruits and less fresh as  they began to get more expensive and out of season. Eating healthy, for me, is getting  back to healthy portions. 1/2 my plate should be vegetables and the  other have should be 1/4 whole grains, 1/4 protein/meat. Sometimes, I  would just opt for a humongous salad in a serving bowl. I could load it  up, but it still never hit 400 calories. I would make my own dressing  from fruits and balsamic or nuts. I would sprinkle treats like sunflower  seeds or pistachios, glazed almond or walnuts and cranberries. I added  whatever goodies I wanted on top because I knew it was still healthier  than anything else I could have been eating. And I was still being  reasonable with those toppings, but not depriving myself. And still losing weight.
It  was Halloween and I was down 25 pounds. I could actually wear something  cute for Halloween and I wasn't embarrassed about how I looked. A few people were  starting to notice.


I was energized to keep going and find still more  ways to be healthy. Eating out and holidays are two major areas of  concern when you're trying to eat healthy. However, I looked at it this  way, Thanksgiving was one day, Halloween and Christmas and even New  Years, all just one single day. So for Halloween, I picked a couple  pieces of candy out that night and I left the rest alone. Yes, you will  have to have self control at some point in your life. That is where the  "choosing to be responsible" comes in that I mentioned before. BUT you  CAN enjoy a mini Twix if you want a mini Twix. You are not going to be  obese all your life from 
one.
(KU home game November 2010, really noticing now how easy stairs feel because I'm actually lighter and my energy level has been so improved)
I enjoyed every dish at Thanksgiving (even  my Yukon gold smashed potatoes with gouda cheese, cream and parmesan. I  make them once a year. My mother on the other hand, had been on a very  restrictive diet and had lost a lot of weight pretty quickly and having  only a handful of pounds left to reach her goal, opted to not try a bite  of the potatoes but replaced those with mashed steamed cauliflower.  Folks, I can't live like that. I'm a foodie! I love to try all dishes  that are fabulous, especially the ones that take a lot of work to make. I  was sad for her. I would rather take off 50 pounds in a year and a half  eating fairly consistently than to be under a doctor's care and  "special" diet to drop it rapidly and then live in fear the next year  that it's going to come back when I resume some foods I used to eat. But like I said, this blog is about what  is working for 
me. You have to do what is right for 
you. I didn't have a  heaping serving of anything. I had a modest taste of all that was  prepared, and loved the cauliflower, too. To my mother's credit, it's been 7 months since then and she still looks great, she's very fortunate to have personal trainers and time for working out, pilates and massage therapists that most of us are not blessed with.
I lost another 5 pounds over the holidays.
In  January, I was browsing through the Parks and Rec catalog to see what  sport classes to sign the kids up for when I ran across two things I  REALLY wanted to try. I paid $42 for a "flex card" to go to whatever  Yoga class I wanted to that was offered at Crestview Community Center.  There were a handful I thought might work with my schedule if I could  make it when the kids were in preschool. I also thought the Shadowboxing  class sounded totally fantastic. It was only $17 for 7 weeks, on  Wednesday nights at 7:15.
I never went to one Yoga class. NASCAR season  started in February and it just seemed impossible to make it over  there during the day. My husband, unexpectedly (for me) turned our  second vehicle over to his cousin's body shop for repainting. He said it  would only take 2-3 weeks, but any time he took the kids to their  Saturday classes, I was stuck at home. so the Yoga took a hit. As a  matter of fact, 5 months later, the truck is still MIA making personal trips anywhere a scheduling hassle. (but I digress…)  Luckily, the kids had a religion class on Wednesdays, and we were able  to drop them off and then I could go to boxing and be picked up after  they got out. It was still tricky, and I missed a few for work reasons  too, but I was still signed up through July and I know the last 15  pounds came off more easily because of that class. I LOVE it! It's on a  good night with work, doesn't matter the weather, there aren't a ton of  skinny people there to make you feel like crap about your own body  image, I like Laura's music selection, I get my aggressions out, I  started seeing tone almost right away, I mean everything about it was  great. And it's the ONLY fitness time I could spare. But EVERY pound I  took off, I could basically attribute to eating healthy. I couldn't pin  it on 3-4 hours per month of low cardio and toning. It helped, just  can't take all the credit- or even most of it.
In February, my  husband saw an infomercial for TurboFire. It sounded pretty awesome. I  thought it looked super fun and he got me really excited about it, so I  found it cheaper on eBay and we ordered it. We took our measurements,  before pics, the whole 9. We lasted two weeks before we fell off the  wagon. He got really sick and skipped a day and then NASCAR season  started about the same week, mid-month along with the all-nighters that come  with that -pshh, that was the end of that. I loved it, but there is no  way I can sustain 45 min-1 hr work outs 5-6 days a week. Sorry, I just  do not have the lifestyle that fits that. I work 40-70 hours per week  and I never know how many it's going to be and I'm raising two children  while I'm trying to work those 40-70 hours FROM HOME. From home, people.  It's a blessing and a curse, let me tell you. So, I'm sticking to the  shadow-boxing for now with hopes of being a TurboFire hottie come fall  when my oldest little one hits Kindergarten and the other one is in  preschool 4 mornings per week and maybe just maybe I can start to work a  more normal daytime schedule and free up my evenings. I have a feeling  the TurboFire will be on my terms though, not 6 days per week, but I might try  to get back into it. I'm happy with shadow-boxing for now. The best  thing that came out of TurboFire is that I lost a quick 4 pounds. And  because my calories stayed the same afterward, of course it stayed off.  So I know it works, it's just a huge time commitment.
So it was  mid-March and I was down 35 pounds and super happy about cleaning out my  closet, looking forward to the garage sale in May. I had hung on to  clothes I'd worn and loved before my pregnancies and I was anxious and  nervous to try them on. To my shock, most of it didn't fit! They were  TOO BIG!! yay!
In my former life, I would lose five pounds and reward  myself with a Dairy Queen Blizzard. hahahaa. Then I got an app on my  phone that helps me count calories and that app (LoseIt!) tells me that the little  blizzard I thought was fairly harmless, was over 600 calories! holy  crap! People really don't know what they're pigging out on. So instead,  now I buy new clothes!! It's a little more expensive, but WAAAAY longer  lasting.

(May anniversary, 2011 in cutest dress from Maurices, my favorite place to shop)
I buy one new thing that fits and one new thing that's a little  too small - just to encourage myself to keep it up! It's worked really  well! It is so exciting to lose 3-5 pounds more and be able to zip up  that cute little capri pant, or wear a slim top and not have to suck  anything in, it feels amazing! By March, I was putting on a snug size  10. I actually weighed less than when I got married!
(our 2002 wedding, dress was a size 12)That  hadn't happened since I was 22 and in Air Force Basic Training. All the  new 14's were huge and the 12's were pretty loose. I was kissing the  16's goodbye forever and had my sights set on a size 8! I bought  two shorts in 8's and vowed to be in them for summer.
April and  May quickly went by, so busy with holidays, birthdays, anniversaries…  busy time.
(Mother's Day 2011)
 Around the first of May, my husband saw a very cute, slim  navy ruched dress on the front of a catalog on the counter and jokingly  said, "if you can get into that, I'll buy you the washer and dryer you  want."
(Ruched dress from Venus.com on sale right now for $24, I should order that!)
My bonus had been smaller this year than typical and I wasn't  going to buy the set I thought I was going to get. Ours were over 13  years old and it was showing. I said, "how long do I have?" He said 6  weeks, no Spanx. I scoffed, "no problem." I was confident. I was only 5  pounds from my original goal anyway and I hadn't donned the Spanx since  before Christmas. So to be fair, I added another 5 pounds to that goal,  hoping to drop another 10 pounds total.
Well, he screwed that all up by  going out and looking a washer/dryers because he found a sale and got  them about 3 weeks early. Burst my bubble, really. I did lose the  original 5 pounds I wanted to, but didn't get to the farther reaching  goal. Losing it this slowly is healthy for the long term, but I know if I  really want to trim down another 5 maybe even 10, I'll have to add more  physical activity to burn it up. So tough for me with the little time I  have for it. And with the kids out of morning preschool in May and home  full time, whew, any minute of free time evaporated. I looked up the  BMI charts and I would have to be at 129 to be considered "ideal  weight". I know pictures of myself at that weight. I look sickly (my  opinion anyway). I looked like that at Basic Training graduation after a  6 week course of barely anything but a liquid diet and 8 hours per day  of physical exhaustion and a solid 6 hours of sleep per night.
(USAF Basic Training graduation, June 1998. I'd lost about 30 pounds in 6 weeks.)
 None of which is close to a reality I could recreate today (surely  that's why it all came back so fast, and besides, that's just not a  "normal" life"- that's "the Biggest Loser Ranch" -hahahaa).
So  the goal isn't to be 129. But I'm thinking 135-138 could be a really  nice long term goal. That would likely put me in a size 6. wow. the  thought of putting on my Oleg Cassini original design slinky hand beaded  gown from my high school prom just gives me goose bumps. "THE Holy  Grail".    hmmm…. 20 year reunion coming up in 2013… ah, but I  digress…..  I just keep thinking, "what's another 5? then I get there  and I think well, maybe I could do another 5. I'm in no rush, by next  year, I could potentially be another 10 down, who knows? I think it's  been good for me not to have a deadline, or be up against a beach  vacation coming up, or wedding, or whatever.
It's now July and  I'm down 43 pounds. Those size 8 shorts I bought? piece of cake.
(more clothing rewards! -40 lbs)
I  actually went back this week to see if they had more of those shorts in different  colors, but they only had a size 6 left. I hesitated trying them on,  just seemed unrealistic to me. But I was curious to see how much work  was ahead of me. Shock and awe. They slid on and zipped up pretty  easily. However, they're too snug for me to wear them without being  self-conscious about them, especially because they're khaki, I think  that makes it worse. No worries. I think another 5 pounds and I'll have  it. If that doesn't happen before the end of summer, no biggie, they'll  be the first pair I wear next summer! I've been trying to remember to take a few close-ups now and then of my face because I'm really starting to see how it's changed. Cheek bones and lines, but also really clear skin way more often! And the heavy eyelids I used to always contend with that probably made me look way more tired and aged have evaporated away too.

I also finally had to admit that I  may have to get my wedding ring re-sized. It slips off easily and I'm  losing it when my hands are wet. I have a feeling this will only be  worse when the weather turns colder.

Some bad  news came this month, my shadow-boxing class is ending and it's not going to  be available next fall. So super bummed, can't even explain it! I  actually talked to some of the girls in class about hosting boxing night  at our house so we can keep it up. But my schedule with work has been  all over the place and I'm so afraid to commit to this with the other girls  counting on me if a deadline comes up for work and I can't host. I'm really rethinking this, but  would love to have an inexpensive alternative. Just not sure what to  think, anxious to see how I'm going to figure it all out.
One other note before I close.... the last thing I want anyone to  believe is that I'm on some "shake  diet". Not at all. And I don't necessarily believe you should process  ALL of your veggies and fruit into juice or smoothies and that should be   every meal you ingest every day for the rest of your life. I'm not sure  that would be sustainable, though I find some truth to a 10 or even 30  day "detox" period where you do only consume that.  It sounds like you could get bored with that and then turn back to  unhealthy choices. It's all about moderation! I have a smoothie in the  morning or sometimes at lunch or even for a sweet treat at night when  I'm craving a big ol' bowl of ice cream! Certainly not every meal, and  sometimes not even every day. I also listen to my body. As a matter of  fact, I was seriously craving an egg this morning. Sometimes I think  that's my body's way of saying "your low in some nutrient this food  provides". I had my mango, greek yogurt, spinach smoothie this morning  with every intention of cooking up an over-easy egg, but when I finished  the smoothie, I was too full. So, maybe for lunch, if I'm still "feeling  it". No, that doesn't mean if you're hankering for a twinkie, it's your  body's way of saying you're depleted in some "high fructose corn syrup creamy filling" nutrient,  that's totally different and something you just overcome in time. You  know, I haven't had a fast-food hamburger in over a year? I think I've  only had a bite of a regular hamburger cooked at home once. I did make a  Boca Burger over the 4th, but I haven't missed it one bit. Feed  your body good stuff and it likes you back! Those cravings start to go  away and they'll be replaced with cravings for better, healthier food.
And then look! You're old clothes can spring forth a second life!
(a dress in my closet from about 10 years ago!)
Of course, buying new is a little more fun....

I've found what works long term. I'm going to stay focused on a healthier lifestyle through my  food choices. I sure hope you'll find something here that helps you,  inspires you, or educates you - or all three!
Thanks for letting me share.
If  you have any questions, leave them in the comments and I can try to  address them in a new post, your question could help many others, so  don't hesitate to ask! I'm not a nutritionist or a doctor, but I'm  continually researching, so if I don't have the answer, I'll do my best  to point you in the right direction!
peace and health to you - cheers!
